Finding Myself in the Middle of Everyone
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I have never been my own person. I've never been myself, to say the least, I've always been who you wanted me to be. I'm not my own person I wasn't when I was younger and I'm not now. People telling me what to do, how to act, how to dress, what to say, even what to think. If you said jump my response wasn't just how high. It was where, when, what do I say, how high, which way, and every other thing you can think of. Then my whole world got flipped. All of a sudden I had to be me myself, I had to make my own choices, dress my own way. I had no one to lead me, to tell me how to be. Now people want me to be... well me. I can't be! I don't even know who I really am. I can't be myself when I don't even know who "myself" is.
I'm Lena Rose, or well if you want me to be Jimmy Ray I'll be him. I don't know how to be myself because I've never had to be. Now I have no one to tell me how to be and everyone wants me to be "Lena Rose". How?!
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