dear _____,

Who was I doesn't matter. Who I am now that... That matters. I'm a loner... I don't have anyone that I can trust. I left them behind. I couldn't go back to living a normal life. Not after the things I've seen, been through and done. But I don't want the world to be like this... I may never change, but I hope this world does. If not for my sake then for the sake of those who suffered, died or bled in a world like this.

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ Not for the faint of heart, I explore dark parts of my mind and unfurl them for your own enjoyment. All of these stories are true. You don't know me, and you're never going to. This is basically just a shitty diary of my life with very few details as to who I am, Don't want to scare you off. Feel free to read but I don't really care. I'm just a screwed up guy that everyone knows and nobody cares about really. If you can't tell I'll probably swear quite a bit in this so if you don't like that I'm sorry, but this really isn't a good read anyway it's just me complaining about the fact I still exist. Actually no, whilst I did start this to complain about my life, the stories are fluctuating, as I discover I am infact worthy of love, even I don't believe it at all times. I hope you enjoy my rantings. ⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I did while writing it. https://discord.gg/jrW9f3x

It'd make me feel better if you didn't read this. I am leaving it up tho.

I'm so sorry if you press on this. I was not intending on destroying your will to live. The only way I was able to write this is because mine's already been destroyed.

Have you ever felt so lonely you believed there was nothing left for you? Stashed away, merely forgotten. I mean you could cry and cry, yet no one would hear you. At least no one you truly once loved. Being yourself can be detrimental to others happiness, and so you down play who you are. You devalue your beliefs, your morals fall short and that hollow rock turns into your Mirror. Do you matter anymore? Would anyone care if you simply disappeared? Could you find your way out of the darkness? Look Closer is one of my favourite quotes and so I'll use it as a guide to understanding the complex characters you're about to meet.

"Oh hello Y/N." Anti smiled as he stared at you through the computer screen. "H-how do you know my name?" You stuttered in response. "Oh, Jack didn't tell you?" Anti asked tilting his head. "Tell me what?" You asked. "Jack tells me everything about you." Anti smiled. "Call me Anti. Antisepticeye." !WARNING, CRINGE AHEAD! Dudes this book SUCKS. Why do people even still read this lmao

"Just forget it ever happened." 2016 http-espinosa - I WROTE THIS WHEN I WAS LIKE 13 PLS DONT JUDGE ME 😣