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i focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.

YourPerfectWeapon

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YourPerfectWeapon

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a small reflection on the last three years of my life and main points
i rushed the ending and i don't like how deep i got but yeah
i might make something like this again but idkAll Rights Reserved

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i focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.
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