Strangeness of connections

"How am I in love with two people? Is my heart that big or am I just a selfish pig?!"

"It's either her or her."

"I can't choose. I'd rather be alone."

Connections that I could not understand drove me to two different women, who each had a special place in my heart. The longer I did not choose who I wanted to be with, the longer this situation emotionally broke everyone involved- including myself. Why should I make them options to choose from? Who am I? If I can't decide where I want my heart to truly remain then maybe I should remain alone.

And then there's the third her. Who no longer had my heart but a connection I could not fathom, which has led me to bring her back into my life countless times.

Connections are everywhere. The most heart wrenching ones were both tied around me seeking for the same thing, my heart. Which one do I willingly choose to cut off and which one stays?