All Again
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Last published Thu, Apr 2, 2015
i know what is happening. this has happened before. it is all happening again and again and this time i don't think i can do it. i have changed everything but i still do it. i still kill her. i still see her fall in my arms and i don't know what I'm doing wrong. I wont do it this time. i can’t. i need more time. i need to figure something out. but to get more time i have to kill her. i see there fear in her amber and gold eyes as she knows whats coming. i have told her everything and she knows what has to happen. i hold her amber coloured skin and start to cry in her thick strawberry brown hair as i slide the blade in quickly and at the right angle so she doesn't have to suffer. i see the pain in her eyes for a second as she starts to form the words she always nearly says&nbsp;
“i…” then her eyes glaze over and i am left alone.&nbsp;
crying over her. i used to go into shock, i used to sit with her for days, i used to do so many things, but when this started to happen everything in my life changed. i lay her down and stand up silently, tears still rolling down my face. just because i do it so many times doesn't make it anymore painful. i feel it happening again and then i am having a panic attack in the corner. this is the only way it works. not like i can stop the panic attack. it finally ends and i drift off to sleep, waiting for it to happen over again. i will find out this time. i need to. i don't think i can handle much more. i… i… i…
"Sweet Dreams" is always the last thing i hear.
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They used my vulnerability against me. They used that weapon, to make me accept their stupid idea. And I of course, accepted it, I didn't even know what they were going to do. They tugged and poked and even shoved their disgusting finger in your wound, just to see you cry. To see you change. No pitty in their eyes. They just continue. They drag you around with metal chains, hit you and turn you into a experiment. But I had enough of the tugging, the clawing, the moaning, the crying and pleading for them to stop, but simply feeding them with our pain. They turned me into something, that neither do they know what I am. Their afraid of me, of my reflexes, my strength. I killed a lot of them. They say I have a cold heart, that I don't feel nothing. That's why they call me: Death -----------------------------------------************************************--------------------------------------------- Death. A teen girl, pitch black hair, black eyes, white skin. Her height is 5'8. People are scared of her, not just because of her strength but because of they way she kills. She lived in this hell hole, where they take her to rooms. Examine. Fight. She knows she won't be able to entertain them for long. She decides to run. Soul. Brown hair as mud, blue eyes as the sky. Hight 6'2. Tanned and toned body. Death's best friend in the hell hole they're in, he's as cold as she is. But shows a bit of sympathy. Well... More than her at least. He's been there for her, ever since she entered this place of crap. They're the two most feared. As some people say, they're a perfect couple. Killing. Fighting. Cold hearted creatures. Also known as D and S. Why? That's what your going to find out, joining this adventure with D and S.
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