Things I see and feel
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Horror. Blood, organs, violence. That's what I see every day as I'm slowly going insane.
My name is Mark and I suffer from intrusive thoughts, hallucinations and delusions. Dissociation takes away the bit of reality I was holding onto. Sometimes I don't know what's real and what isn't.
This is a diary about my life and experience with disabilities and how I struggle to keep going while my health is falling apart.
Follow along my journey that will hopefully lead me to recovery someday.
Warning:
There will be detailed descriptions of my hallucinations and delusions that might be triggering for some people. I will be also talking about my trauma and disabilities so don't read if you are triggered by child neglect, abuse, ED, SH, body shaming, trans- and homophobia, suicide, bullying and ableism. Also the extreme violence of course.
If you have similar experiences, feel free to vent in the comments.
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