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Ongoing11m
Last published Mon, May 29, 2023
A girl who struggles with (and loves and hates and lives with) her mental health and warped perception of reality. I'm the girl btw. Welcome to my vent space. Welcome to my head. Welcome to my world.
TRIGGER WARNING:
Mentions of suicide, depression, anxiety. Also go kys. Or dont. Idrc. Actually no i changed my mind. You shouldnt kys. I love you. Disregard anything anyone else tells you otherwise.
"Real things aren't just depressed, or anxious, or calming, or joyful, or random or purposeful; real things are always all of those things, at the same time. Perspective is everything. "
-me, just now
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