I've Got a Crush

I wrote this poem to give myself permission to have a proper crush. Crushes weren't something I wasn't really afforded growing up. I was overweight as a kid and teen, and I still am. I remember being mocked and made fun of for simply thinking a boy was cute. What made it worse is that the boy often got mocked too. It was a hilarious wonder for a fat girl to like someone and the worst thing ever to be the one she likes. I learned quickly that I wouldn't ever get to date my crushes because they were embarrassed to even be liked by me. Eventually, whenever I developed crush on someone, I'd get so angry with myself for doing so because of this. I even asked God to take away my desire for (romantic) love, which He didn't and I'm very grateful. There's nothing wrong with wanting to fall in love and being interested in someone.