God, Why Me?
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Ongoing14m
Last published Wed, Mar 1, 2023
She is a lady, a daughter, a sister, and a student who needs to endure burdens, challenges, pressures, and tests until she chooses to distance herself away in the future.
"If Islam allows us to kill ourselves, then maybe I'll be the first person who do that."
"Whenever I feel like a burden to everyone, I imagine a simple home. I live alone there and distract myself from everyone. With that, people can live happily because I wasn't there, right?"
This is neither a novel nor a fictional story. Instead, this is a simple sharing from her.
*forgive my flaws especially grammar in this story
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