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"You know Luke the more you stutter the cuter you get"

And that was the very moment I broke, his emerald eyes burning into me as I folded, his thumb tracing my jaw, a soft smile nudging at his lips, his body lingering over mine, leaning back I couldn't help but stare in a daze, his knee rubbing against my thighs, a soft moan escaping my tongue. This sound only made him smile, maybe I was dreaming but before I knew it his lips had collided with mine.

***

Luke knew he wasn't into girls, he could tell by the way his stomach turned at any attractive man. Has he had any experience? Not at all, not even his first kiss. 

What'll happen when the most popular soccer player in his school begins to take intrest in Luke? Can he keep his cool at how the hot player acts? or will his emotions get the best of him?

Can the two keep their relationship in tact when fate shoves challenges along the way?

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Nathaniel Jean's Senior Year by stayonbrand

At first glance, nobody would be able to tell that Nathaniel Jean had a problem. Or second glance, or third, or fourth. After all, he had everything. He was a captain of his school's soccer team and one of the top players in the state. He had a big house and money to spend. He had family, he had friends, he had fun, he had faith. He never meant for it to happen. He never wanted to look at another man in the way he should have been looking at a woman. The idea had disgusted him for most of his life - living in a heavily Catholic town with heavily Catholic parents, homophobia was the only response he knew. That didn't change when he first realized that he didn't like girls. No, Nathaniel Jean was still homophobic. He hated the idea of a man sleeping with another man. He was raised on the notion that all gays went to hell, and he believed it. He despised them, and so he despised himself. Nathaniel Jean was more fortunate than most, because help did arrive for him. Help by the name of Lucas Morgan, they boy he'd always known but never known. The boy with big dreams and bigger talent. The boy that changed Nathaniel's life over the course of their thirty-six week long senior year.

Barbie (BoyxBoy) [R] by folkwh0re

[COMPLETED] "Well, well look who decided to show up on the party.", he then look at me up and down before putting one hand up on his chin. "And he's wearing something slutty too, tryna score some?", He smirks. I groan, "What do you want? leave me alone!", I push him rather harshly, he didn't budge though instead he leans in and trap me between his body as my back lean against the wall. "You're a feisty one aren't you, barbie?", he whispered huskily, making me shiver for some reason as I gulp when he starts caressing the back of my neck. "I must say, you look good.", he continues making me speechless for a moment. ~~~ "Ahh fuck... Fuck you!", I moaned as the asshole grins at me sheepishly. I really hate him so much, I don't even know why we're doing this right now. Kissing, fucking, and sweating with each other. "That's funny cause I'm fucking you, barbie!", He then goes deeper and deeper in me hitting my prostate causing me to whimpers in pleasure. I really hate him so fucking much! Fuck Rafael Sandoval! ~~~ Alcrais is an openly gay student. Being part of the cheerleader team and having a pretty face mean he's kinda known in his high school. Although his life is not as perfect as it seems. Especially when he has to be partnered up with his so called enemies that he despise. Rafael is your typical high school QB. He's a loud, obnoxious and also known to attract attention from people. Having great physics also rich parents just easily makes him adored by many. Many but one guy, one pretty guy he called Barbie. They didn't get along really well but like other cliché story it soon turns out differently. Will their despair turn into something sweet? Will it ends happily? Guess you have to find out and read this book ✨✨ (*Rated R, not suitable for everyone under 18.)

𝐑𝐨𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝐏𝐨𝐥𝐲 𝐁𝐋 by Rafayelsstarfish

❝"Milo please tell me this is you?" "...Yea, it's me." I bitting back a smile as my arms subconsciously drifted around him. One hug. One hug wouldn't hurt. One sentimental moment wouldn't hurt. "I've missed you." He hugged tighter, and I felt like I was going to snap. "M-Me too, but you're going to fucking snap me in half if you hug any tighter." I gasped and I felt him quickly let go and pull away. "Sorry. I just didn't think I'd see you after so long." He looked at my outfit. "You changed your style." "You too." I say. He has on white shorts that has two draw strings lazily hanging, with a plain black shirt. I clear my throat, "Yea, I just wanted to say hey to my new roommate, but um- yea, see you!" I quickly dart down the stairs, my face was getting redder by the second. I didn't want him to suspect I still like him. But my wrist was caught by a hand when I made it to the living room. "Did I do something wrong?" "No, why would you think that." I try to play it off with a laugh, but it was an awkward laugh, like I was nervous. Which I was. And he clearly caught on. "Because you're literally running away." I hear walking and I look up, and shit. There was Damien. His signature dragon tattoo on his arm, the soft green eyes his and everything that made him, him. He looked up and saw us. His eyelids raised as his mouth opened a little. "Caleb... Milo?"❞ _________ 𝕊𝕥𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕖𝕕 (07/28/24) 𝔼𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕕 (11/15/24)

His Property by Bradterryyy

"Promise me you'll stay strong, for me, for us" Smiling at the older boy below him Blake rested his forehead upon Alec's. "I promise" Hearing these words Alec smiled once more. That promise was all he needed to keep going. For them, for Blake. *** Blake was a nerd, shy, Introverted. Doesn't have many friends other than the school librarian, parents and the local café owner. He's never been one to interact with his fellow classmates. Always been put down upon, bullied by the schools football team. Starting his Sophomore year in high school all Blake could do was hope for the best, be able to merely pass this year in a flash. However a certain jock had other plans. Alec was new to school, becoming popular quite quickly. His angelic looks, body like every girls dream. He soon became the captain of the basketball team. His cold demeanor, bitter attitude girls drooled over him even more. All he hoped was to find a girl to make his, spoil. Except fate chose to completely switch his life upside down. Practicing for his next game Alec didn't expect to stumble upon a certain boy. His heart doing something it's never done before, skip a beat. Following his gut Alec knew what he wanted and when he wants something he gets it. However will Alec's family secret scare the only thing he's come to care for away in the world?! Can these two push past the consequences to find freedom?! ______________________________________________

Plan Of Seduction by bl_principito

"I hate you - so much Tripp." More confusion because, once more, wasn't this a good thing? "Why did you have to say that? What if," A little quieter, just above a whisper. "What if we mess up our friendship?" "But what if we don't?" "You don't know that," I bumped his nose with my finger. "And neither do you. So, why don't we give it a shot?" He bit down on his bottom lip, hesitation and worry filling his gaze. __ This is literally a story that follows the plot of two best friends realizing their feelings for each other, yes, I know, very cliche, but I enjoyed writing it. There will be mature LGBT+ content, so if you don't want to read those chapters or this story, skip it. Highest Rankings (that I'm aware of): LGBT+: #3 , College Romance: #2 , Gay: #19 / GayPride: #2, Gay boyxboy #1

It's Always Been You by Mcubed1078

His shocking blue eyes pierced right through my soul as his warm breath tickled the hairs on my ear. "Kiss me," he said in that seductive voice of his. I gulped, not knowing what to do. Here he was right in front of me demanding that I kiss him, but just a few minutes ago he was slamming my books out of my hands. I didn't get this guy, what did he want me to do. Love him or hate him. Forget about my conflicted feelings. I loved Ethan Walker. ....... My life was so simple before I met Ethan. I was the nerd that everybody picked on and I didn't try to change it. I accepted the fact that I was doomed to be alone my whole life. That was until Ethan Walker walked right into my life. Now, my world has been turned upside down.

It just... happened? (boyxboy) by leaa4500

Before I knew it my shirt was torn away from my torso and tossed on the floor, Charlie's doing the same. Our kiss intensified and I felt him groan against my lips. I swear to god, this boy is making out with me like his life depends on it! And that's when reality punched me in the gut... the words 'this boy' kept running through my head over and over again until it got through the thick fog of vodlka and whatever else was in those stupid drinks. I, Ace Loughty, was kissing a guy. A fucking guy. A fucking straight guy named Charlie Simmons who of course had to be one of the most popular dickheads in Meadow Ridge High. I am so unbelievably fucked. ----- 17 year old Ace Loughty was never one longing to be in the spotlight. In fact, he craved the exact opposite: being left alone. When Ace was 13, the tragic death of his younger sister Eleanor caused him to rapidly gain popularity and pitiful looks. He hated the attention. All of a sudden everyone wanted to be friends with the dead girls brother, they'd promise Ace he would never be alone that they would always be there for him, which he of course knew was untrue, they're all just hungry for attention. Sometime later the school moved onto other drama and gossip, things started to die down and people finally left Ace alone. He moved on with his life, convincing himself he was over Eleanor's death and as quick as the whole thing started, he returned to being lonely, weird, quiet nobody Ace. Just how he liked it. That is until 4 years later when he found himself sprawled out on a bed. With Charlie Simmons hovering over him. Charlie Simmons who was kissing Ace like he would die if he ever dared to stop. Which was all too true. Without kissing Ace, Charlie was as good as dead. *WARNING*: This story will contain themes of severe depression, suicide, abuse and somewhat graphic depiction of self harm. If any of these things may trigger you please rethink reading this story!! Started: January 21st 2020

[BoyxBoy] ✓ I Fell In Love With An Emo Boy by Pinkrainbowcorn

"No, this is not one of those fucking stories where you save me and we have anal sex in the end." Timothy laughed. "It's not? Bummer." Alright listen, I'm not gay. Just because I occasionally peek at the class homo in eyeliner and occasionally think about him in the shower and occasionally randomly touch his hair does not mean I'm gay. I'm captain of the football team, I'm hot as fuck and I can get any girl I want. So why would I choose him? WHY?! Josh the homophobic jock falls for a sensitive emo boy. Trigger warning: Depression, Homophobia, Slurs -COMPLETE-

A love so unexpected (BL) by find_your_love

" I do ". Leo said as he looked at Luke. Luke smiled. " I announce you both as husbands. You may kiss ". Leo felt his breath hitch. Luke smiled moving forward. Leo closed his eyes and felt Luke's lips on his forehead. A smile made its way to his lips. Luke pulled away and smiled turning to the front. Leo did the same. He glanced at Luke with a sparkle in his eyes. He couldn't help but think maybe......... just maybe Luke isn't as much of a jerk as he thinks of him. Luke smiled pulling Leo closer. Leo glared even if he was smiling. Luke only winked at him. Leo shook his head turning to the front. Luke grinned. Luke has to work hard to save his company to prove himself and Leo only wants to be able to put his own gallery..... and the marriage seems to be the only solution. The first impression might always not be the best. The person might be something else than what you think of them as. In the same way, Leo and Luke crossed paths unknowingly and the impressions left behind are different. And now their fates are entwined putting them together. Is it good or bad ? Read to find out.

$The Way I Love You {bxb} by Sayless_lena$

"Jake," Seth called out. Nothing. Seth groaned and then walked up behind him and once he got to him he saw that Jake had both his earbuds in. He chuckled and then walked around the couch. Once he stood in front of Jake, he looked up and finally got his attention. Jake smiled while slowly taking out his earbuds. "Yes," Jake spoke softly. "You've been doing work since lunch," Seth spoke. Jake sighed, looking down at all his notes scattered across the coffee table. He looked back up at Seth. "Sorry," he whispered. The two chuckled as Seth stepped closer to Jake. "Maybe," he spoke slowly as he got a hold of the notebook on Jake's lap. "It's time to take a break." Jake smirked as he watched Seth place the notebook on top of the clustered coffee table. Once their eyes met again a smile slowly grew on Seth's face. #2 (Reasons To Love You) The Way I Love You is another bxb story. It's now senior year- the last year of high school and Jake and his friends all want to make this a year to remember. But when a new student arrives at their school, causing trouble between the friendships and relationships this will definitely be a year to remember. The story contains a guideline for mature audiences only. Unlike the first book, this one is more on the mature side. Just seniors in high school doing what they want. Read at your own risk.

I Blame You by pretty_exotic

"LET ---ME ---GO" I gritted as I tried to pry off the hold he had on my throat. "Do you really want me too... " he laughed "....your dick says otherwise " And feeling pure confusion I gazed downwards and to my utter surprise I was semi hard. A huge wave of embarrassment and horror rushed over me and thankfully gave me enough strength to push the bastard off of me only to find him laughing whilst standing some much needed distance away from me. "You know...Woods ..I'm not entirely sure If you're a sadist or you just like it rough or maybe.........just maybe, you're gay for me" he chuckled as he brushed off he's gear. ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Tyson Woods truly loathed Lucas aka. Luca and by truly loathed, he couldn't be in the same vicinity with the guy without sharing some very unfriendly words with the other. Noone knew where all this hatred emanated from but almost everyone knew that Luca and Tyson were just not cut from the same cloth......... ......that is..... until lust and envy decide to breach a crossfire and burn with each other. .........surely this was a recipe for doom. Or was it? READ TO FIND OUT!!!!!!!

letters to my love • [bxb] by Kliarr

he stalks toward me with an readable look. hurt? anger? sad? pissed? Lust?? i don't know, and that's what's scaring the most "Ace" my voice firm. but he ignores my tone, continuing his walk to me "Ace stop it!" i start to get a bit frustrated moving back away from as he continues forward "why should i?" he finally says. my back hits the wall behind me startling me. his arms shoot to the wall with my head between his arms and his knee between my thighs caging me in between him and the wall "tell me why Elios. i'm curious" he says leaning forward his lips a hair from my own i'm speechless. no words coming to me. he leans forward connecting our lips. i tense up at first but eventually sink into the kiss, moving my lips with his in a hunger filled way more. i want more. more! it becomes heated quickly with myself grinding on his knee, to get some friction "Elios. i want you. i want you right now....." ••updates will be every monday and wednesday•• this is a bxb meaning boy x boy/ boy love •••• also sorry but, hella bad spelling maybe... cbf proofreading!!

Mr. Match (BoyxBoy) ✓ by euwangabrielll

I'm Finn Vasco but that's not quite important right now. I'm a pretty sarcastic guy if I'm gonna be honest. I'm closed off and I literally only have one friend. I might hate everybody in my school... but there's this guy there. He's... let's say, dreamy, someone who I thought would never even acknowledge my existence. That guy who was too damn good to be true, who was too good for me, who was too good for... everybody! You get what I'm trying to say. He's that cliché king of the campus and a popular and attractive heartthrob and with just one wink, he can send people on their knees... That sounded so wrong, anyway. So can you blame me for being over the moon when one day, he approached me only to what? ...To ask for my help courting my freaking best friend. I knew it was stupid for me to hope I'd even have any chance with him anyway. So I just agreed to help him. Even if I was hurting myself and potentially my best friend in the process, my best friend who has been there with me through the thick and thins, I still did it... I mean what could go wrong besides literally everything? So my plan was to just set my crush and my best friend up, and then everything would be alright... right? But of course, life doesn't like it when people have it easy. *** Highest Ranking #2 on #lgbtfiction #5 on #boyxboy #6 on #gay #8 on #teenfiction *** ~ WARNING: This story contains strong language and bullying. If you're not a fan of LGBTQ+ stories or BXB stories, then this story is not for you. ~ If you're gonna plagiarize, you might as well just put your clown outfit on.

The Pretty Boy In The Sheets| bxb | Slowly Editing by WaishaBooks

| Cover by Sunkissedmuffin | (I changes my user) Eric didn't choose or really want to be gay, it just kind of happen- something that just happened, he can't even remember how he found out he was gay all he knew was that he was, And it wasn't like there's nothing wrong with that. Eric wasn't homophobic, he didn't feel disgusted in himself but rather disappointed. Everyone put pressure on him to be this perfect person, whether it being grades or sports or family- everything would be ruin if he came out. That's why he hadn't told anyone in the last couple years, not because he's scared- pft, Eric Goodmen scared? Star football player? Could have all the women by just a click of a button if wasn't for being in love with the same gender- scared? He was just a little 'inconvenienced'. One party changed everything though- to many drinks and making out with the wrong gender to send his fake perfect life crashing down when discovering out the first person he came out to, kissed, and had sex with was Callum Micheals. Mr pretty boy. Like life flashing before his eyes- Eric questioned whether Callum remembered or not? *** The smell of a nose itching fabric softer, too expensive for his parents to buy and the feel of warm feather pillows is what Eric woke up to. His body was somewhat tired, and sweaty but besides that, he felt good- he even let out a morning moan sitting up with his arms to look around, he was at Jackson's. A light ache from his hangover rang through his head reminding him that he drank a lot last night seconds later, he opened his mouth to hiss or groan in pain, but the groan that brought silence to the room wasn't his- it was, "Callum?!" Eric whisper shouted.

OPEN [boyxboy] ✓ by flawed-

BOOK ONE Discovering your sexuality in high-school is one of the most challenging things a teenage boy can face. Being closet gay for months, finally coming out, being greeted with a punch in the face and being shunned is even worse. For Julian Douglas, life can't get anymore difficult especially in the face of high school, a restrictive religious mother, and a gorgeous man with a huge following who jumped into his life at the most inopportune time. ::: He felt like serenity. He made me feel safe and I couldn't help but slow my heartbeat down to match his and at once, I felt the tempo of his heart thumping against my back, his breaths on my neck, goosebumps raising. I could feel it when his body finally went slack, when he'd fallen asleep and soft snores emitted. And I thought I was getting better at this breaking down thing... I honestly did but when I was alone, I seemed to fall apart. Endless serenades of how worthless I'd been and how destructive I was; I was a disappointment to literally everyone and I hated it. My breathing became shallow as I cried for the second time that day, finally feeling content being immersed in guilt. A shudder wracked through my body, tears escaping and Paul pulled me closer as he woke silently. Mumbling soft nothings against my skin and kissing it to slow my breathing, he tried to lull me to sleep, "It's okay, you're okay." Refusing to speak -my voice failing me- his arm came up to wrap around my shoulder and I held him there, placing a small kiss to his tattooed skin in a broken sign of gratitude, I must've run out of tears. And I felt at ease.

Tainted Wings by thenameslore

"Why are you so fucking scared of the truth?" He seethed. The truth. I slowly brought my hands up to his face and kissed him. I kissed him with a desperation akin to that of defying death. This is the closest to the truth you will ever get. I needed this. For the first time in my life i found myself wanting someone, needing someone. I needed his words, i needed his cruelty, i needed his insults, i needed every bit of him. **************************************************** A fracture in his facade. Alystair Satori built walls so high he created an unescapable prison for himself. Cold and indifferent was what he was notoriously known as at the prestigious highly ranked boarding school in England for the rich. The schools new player, Romen Abarra, all he's ever known was alcohol, flirting and running from brutal memories. If only they knew why he left home. What started out as flirting and banters between the unlikely pair turns into something consuming, dangerous and unrelenting love in the chaos of it all.

Savage little nerd [(BoyxBoy)] by Bxtch_Im_Fabulous

The same cliche story of a nerd and jock falling in love. But what happens when the nerd turns out to be a boy that doesn't take shit from anybody and plays hard to get. And the jock a little too trusting. ⬇️⬇️Sneak peak⬇️⬇️ "Fine, we will do the project together." He said throwing his hands in the air, as he surrendered. I just smirked with my victory. "But in one condition; we do it outside the school. I don't want people knowing I'm hanging out with you." He said giving me a disgusted look. "Don't worry, I don't want people knowing I'm hanging out with a dumbass either." I snapped back. "Listen here you." He said while grabbing my collar. "Your little mouth is going to get you in trouble someday." He said between gritted teeth. "I'm sorry, my mouth can't control itself when it's presented to stupidity as low as yours." I said with a smirk crafted on my face. His face turned red and you could see a small vein pop out of his empty head. .......... Find out what happens next.

HOMIES | BXB | WMBM by Eliza_Ann_B

Before I can think it through, I drop the whisk. My hand grabs the front of his muscle shirt, pulling him toward me with more force than I meant to, but it's like I don't care. I need him close, and I need him now. Noah's eyes widen for half a second before I crash my lips into his. It's not soft, not sweet-it's needy, a little desperate, like I've been waiting too long. His lips part under mine, and I lose myself in the feeling of him, the warmth of his body against mine, the way he melts into the kiss. I like this. I like the rush that comes with it, the way my chest tightens and my mind goes blank, leaving only Noah in my head. I pull him even closer, my fingers curling into his shirt, like I'm afraid he'll slip away if I don't hold on tight enough. Noah's hand slides up the back of my neck, his fingers tangling in my hair as he kisses me back, slow at first, but then he deepens it, making me forget about everything else. It's like we're the only two people in the world right now, standing in his kitchen with the eggs forgotten on the counter, sunlight streaming in, but all I can feel is him.

Tense by howtosellmysoul

"I love you." "Oh?" "In a non-bro sort of way, y'know? Full homo." ~~~ Kai and Roan are a lot of things. Best friends, football players, straight A students, future roommates, and so on. Read what happens when a kiss adds something new to the list. ~~~ [This is a FREE book with paid exclusive chapters.] [bxb] [Marked mature for sexual content.]

Twisted by __sillage__

"I think I'm gay." I say, leaving out the part about my... exposing dream about him last night. I watched his expression, waiting for some sign that he was angry. I waited for him to call me a faggot, to curse me off and tell me he never wanted to see me again. Instead, I was greeted with his perfect toothy smile. "That's great man, I'm of proud you." He says, patting my arm as he stuffed another cracker in his mouth. "It takes some real balls to come out to someone." He says, his beautiful green eyes blazing into mine. I felt myself become flustered at his gaze. "Uh, Yeah, Thanks." I stumbled out, "You're not mad?" I ask. His expression turns to hurt as he crinkles his eyebrows. "Why the hell would I be mad?" He asks, hesitating on the crackers and pushing them away. "I just thought-it's just- well... you just always seem so pissed when someone mentions the word gay." I spit out words, scared for his reaction. He sighs, "That doesn't fucking mean I hate gays. Normally when I do that it's because someone's using the word 'gay' to hate on them, it just pisses me off, you know?" He asks, bringing the crackers back into his lap and biting into them. "Plus-" He adds on, "You're my best friend, if anything, you being gay is a blessing. I'll always support you." He says, glancing at me through the side of his eyes. I look away, towards the door to hide the crimson blush that I feel spread over my face. "Thanks." I all but squeak out. And that's the day I realized, I have a faint crush on my best friend. <><><><><< THIS BOOK IS BEING *MAJORLY* EDITED. THERES LOTS OF SPELLING MISTAKES AND NAME MIX UPS, SOME CHAPTERS WILL BE REWRITTEN Also, Please don't be mean to the characters, they aren't even close to perfect, but they don't deserve hate.

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𝐑𝐨𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝒍�𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝐏𝐨𝐥𝐲 𝐁𝐋 cover

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Plan Of Seduction cover

It's Always Been You cover

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I Blame You cover

letters to my love • [bxb] cover

Mr. Match (BoyxBoy) ✓ cover

The Pretty Boy In The Sheets| bxb | Slowly Editing cover

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Tainted Wings cover

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HOMIES | BXB | WMBM cover

Nathaniel Jean's Senior Year

At first glance, nobody would be able to tell that Nathaniel Jean had a problem. Or second glance, or third, or fourth. After all, he had everything. He was a captain of his school's soccer team and one of the top players in the state. He had a big house and money to spend. He had family, he had friends, he had fun, he had faith. He never meant for it to happen. He never wanted to look at another man in the way he should have been looking at a woman. The idea had disgusted him for most of his life - living in a heavily Catholic town with heavily Catholic parents, homophobia was the only response he knew. That didn't change when he first realized that he didn't like girls. No, Nathaniel Jean was still homophobic. He hated the idea of a man sleeping with another man. He was raised on the notion that all gays went to hell, and he believed it. He despised them, and so he despised himself. Nathaniel Jean was more fortunate than most, because help did arrive for him. Help by the name of Lucas Morgan, they boy he'd always known but never known. The boy with big dreams and bigger talent. The boy that changed Nathaniel's life over the course of their thirty-six week long senior year.