Track star missing

Alex felt she would never amount to anything, as her mom was a dope head that was never home and with a new boyfriend every month that she spent more time and money on than she did with her own daughter.
Alex's dad died when she was at a young age so she never got a good or any father figure in her life so far.
Alex only felt at home when she was on the track running, she was the best in her school as she was about to make state and hope to make her school proud. She so badly wants to win the scholarship for the best college out there and how she would finally get out of this hellhole she called her life.
All that changed when she was in Washington for her race when she suddenly disappeared with no trace that she was ever there and finally it seemed everyone knew and cared about her.
Does Alex want her life to be missing and people begging for her to be found or does she want to die fighting to go back to the place that hated her the most?