I Can't
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TW! Eating disorders, self harm, rape, panic attack, alcohol, suicidal thoughts/attempt
While streaming one day, some people in the chat comment on George's weight. He laughs it off in the moment but starts to watch what he eats and work out more. Eventually he eats less and less and tries to convince himself and others he's just not hungry or he's on a diet. But it all goes downhill from there.
Disclaimer! This is just a fanfiction! It's not real and I am in no way trying to insult any of the dsmp members. :)
For anyone struggling right now, I promise it gets better. A glow stick has to break before it glows. (cringey I know but it's true) Love you all! <3
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