My thoughts, and my feelings, I guess
- LECTURAS 33
- Votos 3
- Partes 3
"To feel the awkward atmosphere hanging over you in the air at the end, like a cloud that is about to explode because of the amount of rain it is holding.
The burning thoughts telling you to leave, run, but at the same time telling you that it would be rude to leave." - this book??
As I'm looking over everything now, I'm willing to admit that everything, especially the title might look a bit cheesy and unoriginal (maybe because I'm not the most creative creature in the universe?), but I promise you it's not.... or at least I hope not.
Started: 01/30 2023
Ended: not yet🙃
I'm gonna try to post at least once a week:-)
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