What Am I
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Last published Thu, Jun 1, 2023
Has love always been a mystery that you've been told about since you were a child, so innocent that it was the only thing you dreamed about. A fairytale that made your little heart beat fast when Ariel finally got her true loves kiss, or when Cinderella merried prince Charming. As the years passed and life continued to go on, all that you've seen of your own story is pain, heartache, backstabbing, suffering and lies.
In this story, love is always a question that Cylus a boy of 17 asks himself on a regular. As he flows through high school not understanding why none of the other students ever caught his eye. questioning if he was normal.
*this story is about one questioning their sexuality. The story will have strong themes, including sex, abuse, mental illness and sexual assault. Discretion is advised.*
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