My mind? Nah. It's a scary place
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MatureOngoing5m
Last published Thu, Feb 16, 2023
My thoughts through out the day. Or realizations I have about my suppressed past. This is my inner thoughts. Shit I don't out loud. It's dark as hell. There will be cursing and there will be things that will upset you. I'm sorry if you see yourself in these. I'm so sorry. But I will not be taking this down because you feel I'm wrong to share this. It's here to show people that they aren't alone. That there is at least SOMEONE out there who knows what it's like.
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