It was October 20th and it was getting dark and cold, it felt lonely it's been like this for a while, but it didn't hit me until now that it really only made me miserable and if only id been able to pull the trigger that night, maybe none of it wouldn't have happened, but I didn't, I really couldn't. I swore never to forgive myself after that night, to isolate myself, specifically every winter, I couldn't hurt anyone else, though now I've only started hurting myself.All Rights Reserved