The Lost Soul
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Last published Mon, Feb 23, 2015
Hi I'm Jessica I'm 16 years old and I have bipolar depression . Im very quite at school ... I fake smiles to my friends but under all my clothes are battle scars of horrible memories ... This is my story on the events that happened to me since 3rd grade to now
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