My head flies over my pillow in a start. I can't hear what I know to be my raspy breaths, but I still need to breathe. Breathe, Ananka. One. Two. Three. Again. One. Two. Three. I don't want to go to sleep. I can't sleep. I won't sleep. Stay awake. Awake. or A girl named Ananka can never tell if she's asleep or awake. Will she ever find out?