mind labyrinth
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Last published Wed, Mar 22, 2023
/ - what hides behind my face or in my mind.. why am i even supposed to find my true feelings.. /
i'll write all my thoughts here, i don't know how is this even going to help me, but whatever. i can write any stories here if i want so enjoy this i guess?
this contains :
thoughts of suicide
strong language
and maybe more than this. read on your own risk if here's anything that triggers you.
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You don't believe me anyways. You don't see me throwing away my inhibitions or filling up my online shopping cart. You don't see me diving into new life goals and careers and areas of study. You don't see my cry to myself in the car when my chest sinks in and my head gets crushed in a vice. You don't feel the panic in my stomach whenever I must make human contact. And you sure don't see how hard I try. How I wake up every morning and apply my mask. My work mask- to conceal all of this. But.... It's been the same mask for many years And my mask is wearing thin. My sadness, my anger, my paranoia and grand euphoria are trying to become a part of your world too. A world where it's not welcome. A world where it's not understood, where it's frowned upon.
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