My life thoughts
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Last published Thu, Feb 26, 2015
Chapter one
I wonder if my self thoughts control my actions, because when ever my self conscience tells me anger and agony are the only thing I need. My body looses control and let's my self guilt tear me apart.
Now I'm at the point when I don't even know if my sanity is fine. "It's ok Mikey" I tell my self, wondering if I've gone insane. Thinking or trying to remember what I am.
Never mind , I know who I am. I'm unsecured psychotic maniac, that knows the truth behind his past of shame. At which a point of my life that haunts me in my mind at night. Its weird ,because there's only one person that cares about me. That is my one love
Caitlin skyler Rasor
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