ROCD Motivation Poem For Those Impacted
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This story is a vent piece about my experience with ROCD which is defined as relationship ocd, usually following a traumatic event such as a death or breakup that causes uncomfortable unwanted fears within one that creates physical manifestations of discomfort and anxiety. It is not treatable with medication, nor is it something that people live with their whole lives, it fluctuates based on people's current lives and their cognitive abilities. It is frequently treated by "increasing tolerance to discomfort and stress" and increasing coping skills with disappointment and avoiding using the same comforts over and over, as they become rituals themselves. Poetry, therapy, music, and speeches are frequently outlets that cause those with situational OCD to recover. I hope this piece helps anyone who is suffering or has suffered because of a loved one who has ROCD to better understand it and know that it isn't your fault. But it is your responsibility to acknowledge that your compulsions only hurt you and the ones they love. You must ignore them and they will go away, all they are is flash images in your brain. If you do not pay them mind, they won't pay you mind. Genuine fears and obsessions are not the same. Read this piece and consider, is it better to live in a world with no emotions and no fear, or is it better to live in a world where you feel all that your brain, that life has to offer? Feel everything as deeply as you can with no regrets. Or you will live a life full of them.
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