Drowning In Myself
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No one understands. I'd explain it if I could, but there are no words. There is no reasonable explanation for why I am the way I am. I try to change, I don't want to hurt this way. I want to be good, healthy, strong, and happy. My thoughts jumble together and there is nothing I can do to stop the pain.
"What is depression like?" It's like drowning. Except you can see everyone around you breathing.
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