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I got up this morning and I told myself Not cutting today. Putting on my clothes telling myself Not cutting today. Waiting on my bus listing to my music thinking Not cutting today. Getting on the bus is a hassle name calling pushing shoving but today not letting it get to me thinking Not cutting today. 
Lunch was ok I always bring mine I sit alone but saying Not cutting today. As the last bell rang some one punched me she said go cut yourself you ugly whore as I say to myself Not cutting today. Got on the bus trying not to cry say over and over Not cutting today. I get home before anyone else and I pull up my computer and I see the video of the girl punching me and pictures of my busted lip crying looking at the razor say I might cut today. Everyone's asleep i get a text saying lip all better haha. It was that girl who punched me I got up out of my bed got the razor and cut. I said to myself I cut today.All Rights Reserved

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Bitter Sweet

"Get out," he sighed. "N-" I got out. "Nah, you can go," he shook his head. "Babe," I called out, but he wasn't having it. "I fucking risked my life trying to protect you. I almost died trying to save you! And when I couldn't, I sat by your side everyday until you could recover! Get the fuck outta here witfh that no contact shit," he shook his head. "B-but," I sobbed. "Nah, Sage," he shook his head. "I attended your stupid relationship therapy sessions hoping you'd at least give me a chance. You asked me to choose, and I chose you. It didn't even feel like a choice! I always put you first! You still won't give me a fucking chance. What more do you want from me? Huh?" "Your forgiveness," I replied, a tear escaping my eye. "Forgiveness?" he chuckled while shaking his head. He took something up and flung it at the door again. "God, Sage," he shook his head. "Please, just leave. Maybe then I can stop hurting." "Nick," I sobbed, but he wouldn't even look at me. "You obviously don't care how I feel. You're gonna do you no matter what. I honestly expected better from you," he said. "Just get the fuck out my face."