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I got up this morning and I told myself Not cutting today. Putting on my clothes telling myself Not cutting today. Waiting on my bus listing to my music thinking Not cutting today. Getting on the bus is a hassle name calling pushing shoving but today not letting it get to me thinking Not cutting today. 
Lunch was ok I always bring mine I sit alone but saying Not cutting today. As the last bell rang some one punched me she said go cut yourself you ugly whore as I say to myself Not cutting today. Got on the bus trying not to cry say over and over Not cutting today. I get home before anyone else and I pull up my computer and I see the video of the girl punching me and pictures of my busted lip crying looking at the razor say I might cut today. Everyone's asleep i get a text saying lip all better haha. It was that girl who punched me I got up out of my bed got the razor and cut. I said to myself I cut today.Todos los derechos reservados

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