Finding Mathew
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Matthew was everyone dream man. He was kind, smart, rich, and he was also VERY pretty for a male. However, everyone has a secret that they are not proud of. For Matthew, it was that he was extremely homophobic, so much that he bullied this kid named Jamie for years on end just because of his sexualality. His feelings towards queers never changed. He thought they were disgusting and would go to hell.
However, those very same feelings change when someone close the Matthew comes out as gay. He doesn't know how to react. He loves this person with all of his heart, but can he really accept him as one of them?
Read to find out how Matthew learns to accept the people around him for their preferences and even makes new friends along the way. Maybe even a new lover
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