Why I am still living in this cold cruel world? Why can I stop believing myself that they can also love me back? Why I still never give up on everything if I'm always hoping that EVEN 1 person in my family can truly accept me? Why do they always care and love my siblings except me? Why they always pretend in front of other people that they love? Why and just why! I'm going crazy just because of thinking everything. They always told everyone that there is no favoritism but what I experience is not. I'm alone, shivering, I need some love and care but what they give is hate, criticism, and the cold shoulder I tried to kill myself many times just to end this suffering but I stop halfway because I realise that I have so many dreams that hasn't been fulfilled and once I fulfill everything I should decide whether I should kill myself or keep living in this cold cruel world I'm Abi A. Dizon and this is my story.All Rights Reserved