Learning To Love
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I am Rita Arturi.
I’m depressed; and I know that’s kind of forward, but it’s the truth.
When people usually introduce themselves they say their biggest trait, and being depressed is mine. It’s just who I am.
Being depressed isn’t exactly on everyones top ten list of things to do in their lifetime. But, for me it’s always been there like a ghost, always one step behind me. I used to hope that it would just go away, but now I’ve just accepted it as part of who I am. A part of me that will never get better. Most of the websites I’ve looked on about this, say that it will get better it may just take some time.
Well then I am faced with another question, can I wait that long?
In my life I also, want love. I want someone to make me feel important. I have spent most of my life being ignored by the people who meant the most to me. The people who were supposed to love me. My parents.
But, for me things will never change.
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