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Write In My Heart

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Time 3h 36m

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Asa Hill is in love Johnathan Banks, and has been for a long time. 

From taking baths together as kids to being on the same wrestling team in high school, Johnathan Banks has always been the center of Asa's life. But Johnathan hasn't known that, of course. 

But as the boys continue getting closer, Asa finds it harder and harder to keep his forbidden feelings for Johnathan a secret and spirals into a dark depression. 

Set in the 1990s, in this story of heartbreak, realization, and patience, will Asa risk it all and confess his feelings to Johnathan, or will he force himself to be content with the title of "best friend"? 

content warning: homophobia, mentions of self harm and suicidal thoughts, and depression
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This book is the final book of the "In My Heart" series but can be read as a stand alone.All Rights Reserved

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Signs From The Universe (bxb) by dreammcatcher

Alex has been looking for a sign from the universe. A sign to tell him that he needs to keep fighting. To live on for his brother who died in a tragic car accident. When Alex stumbles across a man in town wearing a blindfold, holding a sign that says, 'You are not alone. If you need a talk or a hug. I am here.' He takes it upon himself to approach the stranger. Was this the sign he has been looking for? - River has been a mental health advocate for three years. With his own demons battled, he takes it upon himself to support others. More specifically strangers. He has always found peace in helping those who suffer in silence. When River is approached by a man who expresses his depressive tendencies, he decides to take the broken stranger for coffee, out of fear of what might happen if he lets him go. River tells him to offload, release all the sadness and frustration he has into someone who knows nothing about him. But when he leaves, River can't stop thinking about him. It's not until Alex comes back a few months later to thank him for listening when he needed help the most. Alex has a lot to thank for his signs from the universe.

Not All Who Wander Are Lost by Tea_Elliot

"Goodbye, Sam Thomas Foster," "Goodbye, Michael October Valley," ------ When Michael came out, life as he knew it ended. Everything fell apart and he lost his best friend. Now, four years later, his former best friend, Sam Foster, is suddenly reappearing in Michael's life. A school camp to solve the rivalry between two school's football teams pushes the former friends closer together and it isn't long before old feelings start to ignite once more. There's only one problem. The past. Will Michael be able to forgive Sam for what happened after he came out, or will the two continue to wander away from each other, lost forever.

Stay (Boy × Boy) ✔ by sweetcaressesofmay

You love your best friend, he doesn't love you back. He has met a girl, a pretty little thing, he's in love with her. He's your only friend, but he has new friends. They're toxic and no good for you, either of you. They treat you like sh*t, and when you get treated like sh*t often enough, you start to believe it's what you deserve. And before you know it, you're drowning. You're drowning in deep, cold water. William and Aydan have been inseparable for ten years, due to an arrangement William's wealthy dad made to make sure his asocial son has at least one friend. During those years William has secretly fallen in love with Aydan. Once Aydan starts going out with a girl named Claudia, William wants to keep his friend close even if it hurts. Soon things start to change between them and Aydan's first love has more dangerous consequences than anyone could have guessed. CW: violence, depression 2020 (original), 2021 (edited)

Break In My Heart by ChicagoDreams

Addison Bruno-Williams was definitely not homophobic. How can he be when he had two dads that he loves more than anything? But still the dreaded g-word makes him feel what he hates the most: a loss of control. And he controls every aspect of his life from his grades to his teammates under the Friday night lights. Besides, he's straight and has an amazing girlfriend that he's very much in love with to prove it. But everything changes when the kind, funny new boy who says his name just right crashes into his life. Will he lose control, or will he keep his head and heart straight? Spin off to "Tear In My Heart" but can be read as a stand alone. NOTE: the main story is complete but I'm still uploading bonus chapters ©2019 Beautiful cover by: NiaGraphics! Thank you so much, I love it.

No Longer Friends by ThatOneGayKid1010

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I Don't Mind by gabedavisbills13

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The Bad Boy Saved Me by Pentatonix21

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