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Write In My Heart

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Time 3h 36m

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Asa Hill is in love Johnathan Banks, and has been for a long time. 

From taking baths together as kids to being on the same wrestling team in high school, Johnathan Banks has always been the center of Asa's life. But Johnathan hasn't known that, of course. 

But as the boys continue getting closer, Asa finds it harder and harder to keep his forbidden feelings for Johnathan a secret and spirals into a dark depression. 

Set in the 1990s, in this story of heartbreak, realization, and patience, will Asa risk it all and confess his feelings to Johnathan, or will he force himself to be content with the title of "best friend"? 

content warning: homophobia, mentions of self harm and suicidal thoughts, and depression
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This book is the final book of the "In My Heart" series but can be read as a stand alone.All Rights Reserved

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A Second Chance by lisaaaaa1616

Clay's life seems fine, but is everything except from fine due to bullies ruining his happiness day by day. His grandpa is the only one who knows everything about him, but when he gets really sick and passes away, Clay's life completely collapses. To regain his control, he starts developing obsessive behaviour, getting so bad that it turns into OCD. The control he tried to regain gets lost even further with the day. But when the only place, his sport, he finds peace also gets ruined by bullies and his OCD, George is suddenly there to stick up for him when everyone else isn't. At least... that's what it seems like. TW's: -Suicide attempt and thoughts -Death (due to sickness) -Betrayal (fake love) -Homophobia -Self harm -Bullying -Abuse -OCD

Heartbroken by eelarinn

[COMPLETED] When Eli found his boyfriend having sex with his best friend, he was shattered. Tyler and Tony were the only people other than his family that Eli trusted. But they broke his trust. They broke his heart into thousands of pieces. Eli lost both of them. They were the only people in his life along with his sister and mom. Now he was all alone. Betrayed and hurt. Heartbroken. But when Andrew entered Eli's life, he felt a bit happy. Like he could trust him. Share his thoughts with him. But is Andrew worth Eli's trust? Will Andrew hold Eli's hand? or will he leave him just like Tyler did? 🌿 This is my first ever book. Give it a try. If you like it, then comment and vote. If you find anything wrong with it, feel free to criticize me. Thank you.

$The Way I Love You {bxb} by Sayless_lena$

"Jake," Seth called out. Nothing. Seth groaned and then walked up behind him and once he got to him he saw that Jake had both his earbuds in. He chuckled and then walked around the couch. Once he stood in front of Jake, he looked up and finally got his attention. Jake smiled while slowly taking out his earbuds. "Yes," Jake spoke softly. "You've been doing work since lunch," Seth spoke. Jake sighed, looking down at all his notes scattered across the coffee table. He looked back up at Seth. "Sorry," he whispered. The two chuckled as Seth stepped closer to Jake. "Maybe," he spoke slowly as he got a hold of the notebook on Jake's lap. "It's time to take a break." Jake smirked as he watched Seth place the notebook on top of the clustered coffee table. Once their eyes met again a smile slowly grew on Seth's face. #2 (Reasons To Love You) The Way I Love You is another bxb story. It's now senior year- the last year of high school and Jake and his friends all want to make this a year to remember. But when a new student arrives at their school, causing trouble between the friendships and relationships this will definitely be a year to remember. The story contains a guideline for mature audiences only. Unlike the first book, this one is more on the mature side. Just seniors in high school doing what they want. Read at your own risk.

Stay (Boy × Boy) ✔ by sweetcaressesofmay

You love your best friend, he doesn't love you back. He has met a girl, a pretty little thing, he's in love with her. He's your only friend, but he has new friends. They're toxic and no good for you, either of you. They treat you like sh*t, and when you get treated like sh*t often enough, you start to believe it's what you deserve. And before you know it, you're drowning. You're drowning in deep, cold water. William and Aydan have been inseparable for ten years, due to an arrangement William's wealthy dad made to make sure his asocial son has at least one friend. During those years William has secretly fallen in love with Aydan. Once Aydan starts going out with a girl named Claudia, William wants to keep his friend close even if it hurts. Soon things start to change between them and Aydan's first love has more dangerous consequences than anyone could have guessed. CW: violence, depression 2020 (original), 2021 (edited)

No Longer Friends by ThatOneGayKid1010

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Obsession by JMPalmer

**For anyone reading or who has read 'Crush', this is the story of Jenson and Caleb** They say the course of true love never did run smooth... Watching his best friend, Oliver, fall in love with his old friend, Asher, almost breaks Jenson Archer's heart. He's only ever had eyes for Oliver, but has never admitted it out loud. Not even to Oliver. Choosing to stay close to Oliver rather than push him away, Jenson tries to support Oliver's relationship with Asher, while secretly wishing for a relationship like theirs for himself. Caleb Tennyson believes he's in love with Asher. After Asher moves to a different school and almost breaks Caleb's heart, Caleb's still determined to keep Asher in his life. He even tracks Asher down and declares his love for him, all the while knowing that Asher is in love with Oliver. Both Jenson and Caleb are too busy trying to love someone that isn't meant for them, almost obsessing over their friends, that neither of them are prepared for when they meet each other by chance one day ... and are totally blown away. As life moves forward, they try to navigate their new relationship while being apart from each other at college, attempt to overcome jealousy and addictions and then watch from the sidelines as their best friends and former crushes marry each other. Will their own relationship stay the course? **Updated weekly**

Football Boys by NatureProductions

| Novel | Version 1 ~ Published early 2018 ~ Burdened with undeniable romantic feelings for his best friend, Greyson feels as if his life has become a typical tragic story of a one sided attraction. For the most part, he's right as his love story is both emotionally draining and convoluted for a lack of better words. But neither of the friends anticipated that things would quickly escalate after a drunken kiss. ________________________ "My fist stung with a burning pain as I stood over Ace's unconscious body. A bit stunned yet remorseless as a multitude of gawking eyes bore into me, I was numb. And sluggishly turning to meet Greyson's watery eyes, it was as if my mind had turned to a word stealing mush."

So Where Does that Put Us (boy x boy) by LifeDeep

"When something terrible happens to someone, everyone feels sorry for you at first, they take your hand and cry fake tears and say how 'special' you are, how strong you are. But after a while they forget...Then they don't see a person anymore they just see this terrible thing and think you're terrible because of it...It's like a little switch that goes off in people's heads: one minute everyone is your friend and they care oh-so much, then, when things die down, they become terrified of you. You'd be surprised to see what fear can make someone do." Justin Ivanov has never led much of a normal life, but when his sister passes away, his entire world falls apart. Trapped in an abusive relationship and in a school where everyone is scared of him, Justin continues to deteriorate, pinning all his hope on his confused best friend, Ben Fulton. He struggles to keep his family together without them finding out the hidden secret of his sexuality. But the more he fails, the closer he gets to losing himself forever. Ben Fulton doesn't understand what depression is. He doesn't understand why people have it or how to fix it. But when the sudden death of his best friend's sister leaves him feeling empty, he comes too close to comfort with just what depression can make someone do. Trying to sort out his own emotions, sexuality, and future out, Ben also has to balance trying to save Justin. But the more he tries, the more his feelings grow for his best friend, and the closer Justin gets to destroying himself.

I Don't Mind by gabedavisbills13

[boyxboy] Adrian Sanders has had a crush on Derek Peterson for three years in high school. They played on the same side of the field, locking up any receivers that tried to get receptions on them. Adrian is the only person that knows that Derek is gay, but Derek doesn't know that, until Adrian sees something that will change their relationship completely. WARNING: There are massive spoilers for Teammates With Benefits. If you don't want a book full of smut, then this book can kind of be read as a standalone, but I would not recommend it. There will most likely be smut, but this is going to be a slow burn. Homophobia will be way more present than it was in Teammates With Benefits. My updating schedule will be the exact same as it was for Teammates With Benefits. Every Monday and Friday at 7 AM PST/10 AM EST. This will be consistent throughout the entire book. This book will probably be under constant editing, similar to Teammates With Benefits. Again, the schedule of these football (American football) games will not be the same as it is in real life. In real life, college football ends in January, but in this book, games will go until May. This is most likely not going to be the only sequel/spin off I write off of Teammates With Benefits. I'll see where all the characters are by the end of this book, decide if I want to or am at least motivated enough to write another book with these characters. I most likely will be.

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A Second Chance

Clay's life seems fine, but is everything except from fine due to bullies ruining his happiness day by day. His grandpa is the only one who knows everything about him, but when he gets really sick and passes away, Clay's life completely collapses. To regain his control, he starts developing obsessive behaviour, getting so bad that it turns into OCD. The control he tried to regain gets lost even further with the day. But when the only place, his sport, he finds peace also gets ruined by bullies and his OCD, George is suddenly there to stick up for him when everyone else isn't. At least... that's what it seems like. TW's: -Suicide attempt and thoughts -Death (due to sickness) -Betrayal (fake love) -Homophobia -Self harm -Bullying -Abuse -OCD