Write In My Heart
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Asa Hill is in love Johnathan Banks, and has been for a long time.
From taking baths together as kids to being on the same wrestling team in high school, Johnathan Banks has always been the center of Asa's life. But Johnathan hasn't known that, of course.
But as the boys continue getting closer, Asa finds it harder and harder to keep his forbidden feelings for Johnathan a secret and spirals into a dark depression.
Set in the 1990s, in this story of heartbreak, realization, and patience, will Asa risk it all and confess his feelings to Johnathan, or will he force himself to be content with the title of "best friend"?
content warning: homophobia, mentions of self harm and suicidal thoughts, and depression
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This book is the final book of the "In My Heart" series but can be read as a stand alone.
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