it may not be safe for me to write this. I shouldn't even have tried to start this story. The thought shouldn't have even crossed my mind. But the love I experienced in my heart was one too great for me to even try to deny. I had met the man who I wanted to always be with me. My tale may be one that you have heard before. But I want my life to be remembered. I want people to know my name. know that I was the first woman to be handed a leadership position in the Brotherhood. Know that I cannot state clearly what is entailed in the Brotherhood. It is forbidden to ever tell an outsider about our existence. I guess it's time to put to the test my relationship between me and the leader. Don't tell him I'm testing it. He would be mad at me if I ever did. So this is my tale, my story, my diary. That should be all I have to say.
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