Sparkling Dullness

TW For the whole book!!! This is just a book of what goes through my mind as someone with an undiagnosed eating disorder :)

Life as a child was amazing. Your weight didn't matter. Your clothes didn't matter. Your parents money didn't matter. All that mattered was who you were going to play with, but that's all gone now. My sister hates me, my mom has no time for me, and my dad, well he left me. My life has been one whirlwind after another. Except I'm content with it, till it all comes crashing down. Every television, billboard, and magazine is covered with models. Models that are supposed to be role models, for us. Perfect face, perfect body, perfect life. I have none of those things. All my life I've never cared that I was over weight, and didn't wear makeup. Who knew a boy could change all of that? That's when I decided to starve myself, force myself to look like the girls in the magazines. Who knew all I was doing was slowly killing myself? Life likes to play games, except my game is called Ana and I don't think I will survive. (unedited) Cover by: MadHatter_25

Ana is deeply inlove with her ex.She knows she shouldnt and she's trying hard to forget him.But how can you forget someone that is a big part of your life?? Did I mention her ex is a hoe???

"I smile everyday. I live my life like nothing is wrong with me. No one would ever guess that I'm screaming inside or that I've secretly been hiding this huge part of my life. No one would ever know that I cry myself to sleep at night or that deep down I'm starving for help." Welcome to Anorexia. Your hostess is Ana. She'll take over from here. Suffering alone inside of your mind from a terrifying mental disorder, is something that even those who battle such a thing every day, cannot fully understand. It's like being alone 24/7 yet it's never quiet inside of your head. You can't stop the voices. You can't control your emotions. As it gets worse, you lose control of your body all together. You become prey to your disease and You can't fight back. That is what it's like for someone who has spent years of their life suffering in silence from an eating disorder. Fighting a monster that you have no chance of beating. It's almost impossible to describe the type of torture that consumes your mind. Hell. It's equivalent to pure hell.

Ana is in a rut. For years, she had been focused on trying to carve out a niche for herself in a competitive, male-dominated, scientific world. On her 32nd birthday, she finally takes a step back and evaluates her life’s direction. With a little prodding from her friends, she decides that this is the year she’ll finally capture the heart of the research associate she’s secretly loved for ages. So she makes a birthday wish—to finally fall in love with someone ('with' being the operative word). But be careful what you wish for—Fate always answers—even if it isn't the exact answer we were hoping for. Find out how even the best-laid plans go awry when the paths of two very different people suddenly collide. Sometimes people search their whole lives for a happy-ever-after. The lucky people are those who realize what's in front of them and never let it go. ;-) +++ This story has now been published ;-) Thanks for all the support! The final five chapters will consequently be deleted. It's available on iBooks, Kobo, Amazon, and Smashwords ;-) Links are below: Available at: AMAZONhttp://www.amazon.com/Be-Careful-What-You-Wish-ebook/dp/B00T6C2MAO/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1423062225&sr=8-2&keywords=C+P+Santi SMASHWORDS https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/515617

Hi, my name is Anorexia. Ana for short. I'm here to tell a story. A story of struggle, family issues, and most of all, losing. At the moment I'm quite friendless and time will unfold that story but for now I have a question. Would you like to be my friend? I promise I'm nothing like they say. But I have to warn you, you must do everything I say.

(COMPLETED) Ana is a sweet, beautiful and smart girl. All her life she was emotionally abused. She grew up with a broken family. She never saw it coming when Xavier came into her life and completely changed it............ Xavier had it all money, power and he was the next in line to be pack alpha. One small problem though. He had a mate. It's not what you think, Xavier knew he wanted a mate. However, his mate was the alpha's daughter from another pack and was sent away as a baby. Now he has found her but she doesn't know he's her mate. She didn't even know werewolves existed. Also will a secret from her mother's past rip them apart?............

Rita becomes strict with her eating, everyday the number of calories she eats gets lower and the amount of time she does cardio gets higher. She practices of managing her starvation by distracting it and never catches a break on the scale. Nobody is aware of it, it was something Rita doesn't want her friends or family to know, hiding her body from them didn't last long. Her mother noticed the dramatic weight change on her body. She tries to help her get back to her eating and tells her many times that she's "perfectly skinny" but nothing works. Her mother puts her foot down as Rita started to get ill, her mom takes her to a mental health hospital. She deals with consequences from her nurses and other patients.

Is it wrong to fall for someone taken? if it is then why does it feel so right. I love him but he is my boss and everything is so messed up. How do I get out of this? Ana is 22 and works as a assistant of Matt Bomer in Bomer publishing. she eventually falls for Matt but its not going to be easy because Matt is taken. Follow the journey of Ana and her boss Matt. Will Matt feel the same way as Ana does or her first love is just going to be uncompleted? Read and find out more :)))