He has full awareness of what he is doing is morally incorrect. He knows it way too well that what he's doing and thinking of right now will give him his very own special space in hell one day. Unfortunately, he can't stop it. And there was no reason and way he could ever stop.
What started as huening Kai's small feelings of infatuation slowly turned into that of hunger, desperateness, and obsession.
Calling him insane would be an understatement.Though he hid it very well with a facade of being a well-mannered, polite gentleman- nothing can ever wash away the paint of red soaking his hands.