As I started traversing on the other side of my existence, I have waitness too much pain and sadness. But what it compelled me is everytime the uneven waves splashed me with my cannoe back from the beach I still get the courage of getting and tried to sail across again. The empty vast inside of my body begun to get heavy as stashed those guilt and hatred along with the pain and misery in life. Were everytime I lay down my weary bone to retired at my dwelling place. A tears flows down in pillow as it tries to hug my head and to scare away this demons inside my mind that reside. Too long, I never found myself to cherish happiness as what it burdens me condemn my whole entity. Nevertheless, as I tried to put down in every details of this random minds inside my head. I found the cured to lessen the inevitable pain, somehow, for only a moment of life. Then take it as a part of my skin to shade and outgrowing for the better me in the pasts. As I leave this in a fragile bind of my journal " Words I Stashed In The Depths Of Oceans" as a great and gentle reminder that I still have to fight back within the conflict of my fear as it started to sprout in my heart as a darkness trying to shrouded my heart to captivate its pureness. And it flickers start to cosnstrict as a hell ^_________^