Surviving Suicide Loss
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Last published Tue, Jun 20, 2023
Surviving Suicide Loss is about my own grieving process. I was 16 years old when I lost my bestfriend/classmate to Suicide February of 2020. I fell into a deep depression that I didn't know how to get out of. That fall my family and I moved across country which tore me apart. I then found a Suicide Loss Support Group on Facebook led by Ashley Anderson. After I was apart of the Facebook group I got so much support from everyone in the group including Ashley. The first year was since my best friends Suicide was rough I was falling apart, I didn't want to talk to anyone besides the people in the Facebook group. I felt like I couldn't talk to anyone besides Ashley. The second year was the same. The third year wasn't like the first or second years.
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