Her

I have always known that there is something 'off' with me, in the sense of how I feel about myself and how other people view me. The conflict has always manifested into a feeling that I am an outcast.
I came out in three stages, first as gay, then non-binary, and then, trans. I guess I was trying to convince myself that I had to live like this in the first two stages. It was a half-truth and half-lie because I wanted to make things easier to accept. When I came out as gay and non-binary, I wanted to feel liberated, but somehow that did not happen. I felt suitable for a temporary period, but when that external validation would fade away, I felt trapped again. I came out officially as a trans woman in 2020, and that felt like such a release of weight that I was carrying. In my entire life, I have not cried the way since that day.