One boy. That's all it took to turn my life upside down. One boy, one love, and what I wish could be mine forever. No more crumbling, no more insecurities. It never works like that, but for me, for him, it works. We work. I don't know what changed. When it changed. I never want it to but life takes its grip, its nasty grip, and pulls you down hard. Can we get back up? Will this be forever? Zayn is my life, the air that I breathe, he changed my whole world and perspective. Why is life so cruel? So many unanswered questions, and so many new insecurities. New perspectives. I don't want to ever say goodbye, will I have to? I'm not ready to, I will never be ready. One boy, our life, my love.