life goes on (not if you kill yourself)
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MatureComplete Fri, Mar 17, 202318m
Izuku was drowning. He started at five and hadn't stopped because nobody ever taught him how to swim. Nobody offered him a hand, nobody dived in to pull him up.
Izuku had drowned for a decade. After the first few years he stopped flailing, stopped desperately trying to swim up and breathe. He stopped silently praying that someone would pull him out. He accepted that he was alone, that no matter how much he suffered, how deep he sunk- nobody would help.
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HUGE trigger warnings! I can't put it all in tags on here so:
self harm
drug use
addiction
implied minor/adult
eating disorder
neglectful inko
suicide
detailed suicide/gore
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