life goes on (not if you kill yourself)
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Izuku was drowning. He started at five and hadn't stopped because nobody ever taught him how to swim. Nobody offered him a hand, nobody dived in to pull him up.
Izuku had drowned for a decade. After the first few years he stopped flailing, stopped desperately trying to swim up and breathe. He stopped silently praying that someone would pull him out. He accepted that he was alone, that no matter how much he suffered, how deep he sunk- nobody would help.
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HUGE trigger warnings! I can't put it all in tags on here so:
self harm
drug use
addiction
implied minor/adult
eating disorder
neglectful inko
suicide
detailed suicide/gore
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"No matter what I do, it's never enough. It's killing me slowly with each passing day, and at this point, it's practically taken everything from me. Despite that, I can't stop. I just can't stop..." Shouto Todoroki develops an eating disorder that quickly consumes his life, and as his depression only worsens, more and more of his repressed trauma begins to bleed through old wounds. Unwilling to burden those around him with the thoughts and habits plaguing him daily, Todoroki feigns his happiness and dons a facade. But when Katsuki Bakugou starts to unravel Todoroki's lies, Todoroki's world also begins to unravel. What happens when Todoroki and Bakugou uncover each other's darkest secrets? ⎯ Trigger warnings ⎯ ▪︎ Eating disorders, purging, body dysmorphia ▪︎ Suicidal thoughts/actions/ideations ▪︎ Suicide attempts and threats of suicide ▪︎ Self-harm and self-destructive behaviors ▪︎ Abuse, murder, gore, violence ▪︎ Toxic, manipulative, and abusive relationships ▪︎ Substance abuse ▪︎ Dehumanization ▪︎ Gaslighting and victim blaming ▪︎ Homophobia ⎯ Notes & Disclaimers ⎯ ▫︎ Triggers not limited to those listed above. ▫︎ Read at your own discretion. ▫︎ This fic is not intended to promote/encourage any of its dark/sensitive themes/topics. ▫︎ I do not own BNHA/MHA. All credit for the series and its characters goes to Horikoshi Kohei.
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