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Too Afraid To Hope

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I stare at the girl in the mirror, feeling the horrible scratchy material of the skinny jeans, harsh against my skin.

I hate skinny jeans.
But I want to fit in.

I want to be one of those pretty, confident skinny girls. I want to look at the mirror and acknowledge that I am  beautiful and appealing to boys.

I'm not just a fat lump. 

I want to feel love like in the love stories. I want to know that someone out there is right for me. That someone loves me.

I know that my Mom and my big brother love me. But that's all.

I'm not even one of those half-decent girls that have one best friend: 

I am no one.
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This is the story of thirteen year old, Adeline, who is mercilessly made fun of because of her size.

This is the story of how she proved those girls wrong.

This proves that if you're not happy either, YOU CAN CHANGE!All Rights Reserved

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WILL YOU EVER

Chichi, her mom and her younger brother relocated to the US to be with her dad when she was fourteen. It was not easy for her to blend in and get used to the lifestyle of the people there but she did and three years and few months later, she is in her senior year, have lovely friends, an alright social life and yeah, a crush or maybe, her first love. She finds herself hooked on this one boy. She wonders what it was that makes her so attracted and hooked on him. Was it because he is in the soccer team or that he was tall and has a pretty smile which shows his perfect white teeth? She could describe him as a jerk because he's indirectly or even directly toying with her emotions. It could only go both ways, will he ever reciprocate the feelings? Will she ever move on and let go?. Read more to find out! (Lol, I know I sucked at this intro but trust me, you'll love the book.)