Hidden behind the scars by blackrose_33
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  • Reads 12,701
  • Votes 496
  • Parts 24
  • Time 55m
Ongoing, First published Feb 26, 2015
I am that girl that talks others out if suicide but has a hard time doing the same for herself, she truthfully assures everyone how beautiful,lovely,wonderful and preacious they are because she doesnt want them to feel the same way she does ....the opposite 

My name is Alyssa, Alyssa Matthews and I am not your average 17 year old teenager. After the death of my father my mother turned to drugs,instead  of facing her problems head on she takes her anger out on me. I am a cutter people generally think of cutters as attention seeker of people who have gone mental. But that is not  me. I am not an attention seeker I am ashamed of what i do. But

 I feel as though I need it. It helps me.I am slowly learning to hate myself. I am alone in this world there is no hope for me.....

Untill I met him...
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