Curse and rebirth - English

What do you do if you are cursed for eternity with an incurable, painful disease? If you are reborn after every death? It can happen immediately after your death, or after a few years or even centuries? What do you do if you can remember every single life? Always have the same abilities? No one can help you - you haven't had hope for a long time. Because there was nothing that could ever break your curse. And all you really want is to be loved and embraced...