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Butterfly Soul

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Haru Carter, a 15 year old transgender boy, has always felt there was something different with him. But something always didn't add up. He never knew what it was. Until one day he started having thoughts. Suicidal thoughts. "What if I'd jump in front of the next passing train? What would happen if I'd slice my throat? Would I die? Would someone even care?" These happened a lot more than 'that one day'. They were constant thoughts in the back of his head. Even though he himself never knew if he was suicidal, he found comfort in these thoughts. Like they were meant to be there. Along the way Haru discovered way more disturbing information about himself that no one would ever even think about such a sweet boy..
 
Haru, along with his 20 year old brother Jay, live in a hell of a household. Their mother Leilani left them due to their father being abusive. She couldn't take her children with her due to some reasons at court. Greg Carter finds another woman, Grace, who acts like Haru's and Jay's mother. She's not the same as Leilani. She's very much the same as their father, dare they still call him that.

Haru's best friend Cameron Miller commits suicide. What that does to Haru has many effects on him, even Jay who's worried about his little brother taking Cam's death very badly. Will Haru ever find a way out of the mess-of-a-life he has? Or will he end up lost.All Rights Reserved

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Complicated by Blue_Writes_Stories

When Oliver was in the 7th grade, all the other boys started talking about dating and getting girlfriends. He went along with it, pretending to feel the way they did, when in reality, he felt no such attraction. It wasn't until the summer between 8th and 9th grade that he finally realized he was attracted to the same sex. Now, months into the 9th grade, he's starting to feel strangled by this secret that he has to keep. But with a very religious family, and friends he doesn't know if he can trust, he has nobody to confide in. Between this and being skinnier than all the other guys his age, he's starting to feel outside of it all, and his nerves are starting to get the best of his highschool self. And on top of everything else, he's started feeling differently about a close friend. Seeing one of his best friends, Logan Anderson, in a different capacity. Having lived with a complicated family situation all his life, Logan has learned to manage a lot going on in his life. With his father's bipolar disorder holding a big part of his life, he often stresses about his chances of ending up the same way. Seeing the way his siblings see his father, it's one of Logan's biggest fears to end up the same way. So he represses his depressive thoughts, his minor addiction, and his clear suspicions that the path he's headed down has already been set. Now, halfway through his freshman year, he has yet another thing in his life that he needs to repress. Because now, he can't think about his best friend Oliver without his mind filling with all the wrong things. And he is far from okay with it.

ORIGINAL:The Boy With A Touch Of Cancer(BxB) by Jeanne_Wolf

"Leo pinned me against the wall with his hips; his hands gently gripping my wrists, keeping my arms above my head against the cool brick behind me. His beautiful, hazy blue eyes -that had turned straight quicksilver, again- were filled with such an intense, carnal desire I couldn't even look into them, so I looked over his shoulder. I saw a small group of kids from the group standing out by their cars who would easily be able to see what we were doing...or at least what Leo was doing to me. At that moment, my mind started wandering to all the things that I could be doing to him right now...but I stopped that train of thought, immediately, as it started heading to all the wrong places... All the dirty places... All of those places involving a very hard part of my body... I glanced back at Leo; his gaze was still as intense as it was before (unfortunately). He smirked at me and said confidently, "You can't ignore me forever, Ethan. You're eventually gonna fall for my charms..." Ethan Carter was focused on 2 things. 1. School (obviously) and 2. Getting over ex (it's proving to be, harder than he thought), but now he has to add dying to that list, and suddenly having feelings for a boy (which has happened once before, but Ethan tries to forget it). Leo Malone makes Ethan feel things he's never felt for another guy. Leo's sweet, patient, and understanding, the only problem is, he's a guy. Ethan tries to ignore the fact that his heart flutters every time he sees Leo, or that he can't ever stop thinking about him; but if having cancer has taught him one thing, it's that, "You have to live in the present, as you may not have a future."

The Gay Mafia Leader's Twins by Depressed-Stressed

Oliver and Jay are two polar opposite 15 year old twins. Well, one of them is, you see Oliver is a tomboy with self-destructive tendencies. Jay on the other hand loves her life, and is so full of it, she's the total opposite of her twin. Oliver has a job, to pay for their apartment. Oliver doesn't go to school because someone has-to work, and she wasn't going to let Jay work. So Jay goes to school, Oliver has a job. The girls do have a motherly figure though, Mama Rae. She's who Jay calls whenever Oliver has pushed herself too far and gets sick. And that's what happens this time. Except Mama Rae had her son over when Jay called. So she brought them along. The boys are looking to adopt a child, and they think Oliver and Jay would be the perfect fit. What'll happen to Oliver and Jay? Will Jay continue her self-destructive ways? Will the girls get adopted by the boys? Can the girls overcome their nightmares, panic attacks etc, and become 'normal' teens? And what will they do when they find out the people who want to adopt them are apart of the mafia?

How Could You? by lazyjellybean01

I look down at my hands and start crying again, "I-i'm sorry, Jayden."   He pulls me onto his lap and hugs me, I put my shaking hand on his cheek, "Jayden... I'm sorry I couldn't keep him from finding out. He said next time it's gonna be me or you... he told me I can't see you anymore." I say into his neck.   He pulls away from the hug and wraps his arms around my waist, "then there won't be a next time."   "W-w-what do you mean?" I ask with more tears falling down my face.   "I mean, there won't be a next time. We're running away." . . . Eighteen year old twins Vivian and Rosey, have been abused their entire life. Never loved, cared for, and always left to try to stay alive alone. But when Jayden walks in, everything changes. Vivian doesn't understand the love she feels and believes that Jayden deserves more than what she has to give him. And with every aching moment she spends trying to figure out when he's going to turn against her and become just like her parents, comes more pain. Two years after she runs away, she's left with only her lover and something she never thought she'd have the chance to love and hold. With the fear of Jayden leaving and her father finding her to finish her off, she stays alert to try to keep her family and herself safe from harm. But what if he finds them and takes all that she has left?

My Wildest Dreams by fhsgctcusbf

Josh and Katie have been best friends since he first moved nextdoor midway through freshman year. They were attached to the hip and acted like they've known each other for years. Josh Parker was the all American boy who all the girls wanted, including Katie. As Katie and Josh's friendship blossomed she quickly formed a crush on Josh, but as the years progressed, her crush turned into love. Five years after leaving Miami brokenhearted after finding out about Josh's engagement to his childhood sweetheart. Katie unexpectedly reunites with her former best friend, and Josh quickly realizes that his feelings for her are not just platonic anymore. * As I'm walking out of work I get a call from my brother to pick my niece up from school. For the past 4 years that little girl has had me wrapped around her finger and I wouldn't have it any other way. Unfortunately I got stuck in traffic on the way over so I'm late for pick up. Once I get to Melanie's classroom I fill out the sign out sheet that's on the wall and make my way into the classroom. I faintly hear Melanie laughing so I know she's not upset from me being late. "Hey I'm so sorry. I got stuck in traff..." I said stopping mid sentence, stunned at the woman in front of me. Standing in front of me is someone I considered one of the most important people to me back in highschool. As soon as I looked into those Caribbean blue that I used to know so well, I knew it was her. It takes her a few seconds to realize who I am. She stands there stunned. We continue to stare at each other until she breaks the silence. "Josh?" She asks not believing it's actually me. "Hey Katie girl." Mature content Sexual scenes Inappropriate language (Book #1 of the Dreams series)

In Just A Week // Trans Klance Fic by WrittnPenguin

Their faces forever burned in his mind. Just as burned as the old country house he used to live in. His parents. The smoke. The Smoke. The Fire. That Damn Fire. The roof of their old farmhouse collapsing, closing off the exit. Their faces, burning, melting in the flames. He would never forget the image of their skin slowly melting off their faces. Horror in their eyes. There was one thing that Keith didn't understand. He never saw his parents when they died. All of it was in his head. His nightmares. <><><><> Keith Kogane, or Kathrine Kogane as his birth certificate says, is a trans-boy orphan who has gone from house to house, being rejected by all his families. He assumes this one is no different, but what he doesn't know is that this family is (What any family should be like) accepting of his choices. (Ok. I get it, I'm not very good at summaries and such but yeah...don't judge it by the summary. It's a lot better than it sounds ok) Warning. This is a mature story. There is a lot of fluff. And strong language. And depression. You have been warned. If you have a problem with gay, transgender, suicidal thoughts then don't read this book. Also, I am a shitty writer, a lot of this is based on other books I've read. There's a shit ton of stuff I got ideas from in my reading lists So go check those out. So yeah...enjoy my shitty writing. I've warned you. Please keep the comments nice, unless it is CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM! Saying 'You suck' is not constructive. Written by: Me duh I had some help with some information on transgender people and some other stuff, @StormOrSkyBreakDown so not all of this is mine :) Also, the editing isn't completely done so when it is I'll be sure to change this message right here ;) Update on that last line, it's been two years and the editing is done. Not sure why I didn't change that but I guess I'll leave it in.

Persona 5 - The Jester's Point Of View by Eve144239

Leading the life of a seemingly normal girl and a boy, as Anja and Luka. There was nothing outstanding about them and their life just carries on as it always does, playing whichever role they must to survive in this world. And yet no one truly knew that they are always one and the same. Then again, who would accept such a fact to begin with? A normal life, that's how things should have been... But honestly, it is anything but normal. Having suspected something rather fishy going on they decided to figure out the truth behind the murder their father had apperantly comitted and they are determined to prove him as innocent! This led them to 'befriending' the Detective Prince, Goro Akechi, himself. However, little did they know back then that this was just kickstarting something bigger, way bigger than they had probably ever anticipated. (Based on Persona 5 Royal)

REVISED:The Boy With A Touch Of Cancer (BxB) by Jeanne_Wolf

"Leo pinned me against the wall with his hips. His hands gently gripped my wrists, keeping my arms above my head against the cool brick behind me. His quicksilver eyes were filled with such an intense, carnal desire I couldn't even look into them, so I looked over his shoulder. I saw a few kids from the group standing out by their cars who would easily be able to see what we were doing...or at least what Leo was doing to me. At that moment, my mind started wandering to all the things that I could be doing to him right now...but I stopped that train of thought immediately, as it started heading to all the wrong places... All the dirty places. I glanced back at Leo. His gaze was still as intense as it was before. He smirked at me and said confidently, "You can't ignore me forever, Ethan. You're eventually gonna fall for my charms..." Ethan Carter was focused on 2 things. 1. School (obviously) and 2. Getting over ex (it's proving to be, harder than he thought), but now he has to add dying to that list, and suddenly having feelings for a boy. Leo Malone makes Ethan feel things he's never felt for another guy. Leo's sweet, patient, and understanding...the only problem is, he's a guy. Ethan tries to ignore the fact that his heart flutters every time he sees Leo, or that he can't ever stop thinking about him, but if having cancer has taught him one thing, it's that you have to live in the present, as you may not have a future.

Caleb by sandithomlover

Caleb is definitely a troubled child. Alone, with nothing going for him, he attempts to take his own life but fails at his first attempt. He desperately wants to try again but is put under constant supervision, especially by his new doctor, Dr Palmer. Dr Palmer becomes more and more involved in Caleb’s life, trying to help him see that his life is worth living through various methods. Eventually, the two build up a trusting and understanding relationship and Dr Palmer allows Caleb to do things that his parents would have never have let him do so soon after something so tragic. Caleb gets his life back on track, enrolling at college and even meeting a girl whom he used to know as a child. The two of them begin to date each other, and everything seems great for a while. That is, until Caleb remembers the reason that he tried to commit suicide in the first place, revealing a secret that shatters his new found confidence. As things at home begin to deteriorate too, Caleb’s situation goes from bad to worse. The only person who knows the truth, Dr Palmer, leaves him to stand on his own two feet, declaring him cured. He starts back at college full time, and becomes ever closer with Stephanie, the only person whom he feels that he can trust. When his own father attacks his mother, Caleb begins to think that the police are on to him, trying to unravel his past, thinking that they have realised what happened to cause him to try to commit suicide. However, they are just trying to build a case against his father. In desperation, Caleb tried to reach out to Dr Palmer, against the advice of his mother. As his life spirals out of control, Dr Palmer makes him realise that the only way he can carry on is to come clean and reveal his secret. In a shocking final twist, everything is revealed to be not what it seems, and Caleb finds out that he will be ok, no matter what happens to him.

The Heartthrob Won't Leave by TheePeaches

Formerly known as "The Heartthrob Won't Leave Me Alone!" - "God Blake, you're a true enigma" Her eyes widened slightly at his words. "I don't understand" she claimed, backing up a step from him, which he had clearly noticed. And to her shock, he took a step forward, blocking the gap she had just created. "You seriously don't see what I was trying to do up there?!" he asked, almost in disbelief. "Do you have any idea how long I've been waiting to do that?!" she couldn't believe how loud he was suddenly. She had always known Lucian as a calm person with a soft, almost brooding voice that he never raised. Now it almost sounded excited, it was interesting seeing a new side of Lucian Black. - Something is happening at Cross Climb High-school Although it seems fairly normal, students going amongst their days unbeknownst to who they travel life beside. Blake Collins was forced to move schools, along with her four best friends. With her mother dead and her father in prison for attempting to murder her brother, she's in foster care, struggling every day with panic attacks and obsessive thoughts from a past of psychological damage. In her new school, she deals with not only her constant daily struggle to maintain normalcy, but also somehow becoming the director of the school play. Add a crush on the school's bad boy, Zac, who seems more interested in Stella, Blake's promiscuous best friend and also contending with another one of the school's popular boys, Lucian, chasing her constantly despite firmly keeping up her barriers. Everything seems fairly normal, at least at first. But, brewing nearby is a rage so intense that it's about to bubble over, and when strange things start happening around her, Blake can't help but fear the worst events will unfold and hope that it won't take the lives of those she loves along with her own. Be careful, because you never know what people are really thinking. - *Warning* Swear words, violence and thought of self harm

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Complicated

When Oliver was in the 7th grade, all the other boys started talking about dating and getting girlfriends. He went along with it, pretending to feel the way they did, when in reality, he felt no such attraction. It wasn't until the summer between 8th and 9th grade that he finally realized he was attracted to the same sex. Now, months into the 9th grade, he's starting to feel strangled by this secret that he has to keep. But with a very religious family, and friends he doesn't know if he can trust, he has nobody to confide in. Between this and being skinnier than all the other guys his age, he's starting to feel outside of it all, and his nerves are starting to get the best of his highschool self. And on top of everything else, he's started feeling differently about a close friend. Seeing one of his best friends, Logan Anderson, in a different capacity. Having lived with a complicated family situation all his life, Logan has learned to manage a lot going on in his life. With his father's bipolar disorder holding a big part of his life, he often stresses about his chances of ending up the same way. Seeing the way his siblings see his father, it's one of Logan's biggest fears to end up the same way. So he represses his depressive thoughts, his minor addiction, and his clear suspicions that the path he's headed down has already been set. Now, halfway through his freshman year, he has yet another thing in his life that he needs to repress. Because now, he can't think about his best friend Oliver without his mind filling with all the wrong things. And he is far from okay with it.