[ongoing] [18+] Dear Diary, it's me, Lola. I'm still stuck in a relationship with Ivan. Do I love him? Maybe. Am I in love with him? No.
And his friends are constantly hanging in our apartment making it harder for me to deal with all the personalities living in my head. Especially HIM - Michael, my boyfriend's best friend!
A classic arrogant, selfish, manipulative player, a walking red flag who thinks he can have any girl in the world.
Okay, he probably can, and maybe I'm just jealous of his freedom and the ease with which he gets whatever he wants.
I wonder if he could have me too...
Oh God, brain, stop! I hate him, for heaven's sake! I can't let him get into my head, so I always avoid eye contact with him.
If Medusa were a man, he would look like Michael.
***
After facing heartbreaks and unfulfilled loves, Lola settles down with what seems like the perfect boyfriend: he's loaded, easy on the eyes, and has a degree to flaunt. He sweeps her into a world of constant parties and upscale living, but for Lola, it's all just meh.
She's depressed, experiences constant mood swings, and hides her true self from everyone. In her diary, she doesn't describe the luxury that surrounds her because she despises money.
Amidst battling her inner demons and trying to escape a relationship that's playing on repeat, another plot twist kicks in - her boyfriend's best friend. His charm and playful banter aren't making it any easier for Lola to keep her heart on lockdown.
Now, she's stuck in a moral struggle: whether to surrender to the first positive feeling she's had in a long time or stick to the script of reason and steer clear of this dangerous attraction.
*Based on the true story*
[Book 2 in the Secret series]
"That's not what I meant..." I chew on my lip.
"Well, what the fuck did you mean then?" He shouts.
"When I'm there I don't have to think about you!" I yell back. Wrong choice of words again, Sophia. I curse myself.
His form immediately stands and he strides over to me, he is now inches away from me, his body is so close to mine that I am forced to take a couple of steps backwards. My back is pressed up against the window. Noah's breathing is deep but he speaks softly, "when you're there all I can think about is you." He raises his hand and tucks a strand of hair behind my ear.
I step around him and head for the door, "uh I'm going to go to the hospital." I pick up my bag and rush out of the door leaving Noah in the room and saving myself from doing something I would definitely regret and make me change my mind about going back to Pennsylvania.
------------
'I love you too,' were the last words Sophia heard before she was banished from her home city and she left without a second thought. If she didn't she knew she would be in danger. A month and a half later Sophia returns as a person close to her is in critical condition in hospital. Everyone's eyes are on Sophia, and they are looking for someone to blame.
Will she return to her new life and forget about New York once and for all? Or will she fit right back into the McKenzie's life as if she never left? And as for her relationship with Noah, there might be a chance for romance after all.