Losing them

I couldn't stop my tears from falling like rain.

My heart is fucking hurt and feels shredded into pieces .

The pain "they" give is unbeatable . The sensation of being left out, betrayed, and disloyal.

2.30 a.m ; Softly expressing my frustration with crystal tears without waking up my roommate. I've been crying uncontrollably for about two weeks. 2 weeks, then why is it hell like 2 months?