Escaping the Shadows
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Today I was planning to end my life because I can't find any reasons to fight anymore. I'm tired. Tired of enduring the pain and hardships that I am facing, but you know what's irritating? Every time I attempt, there is always something or someone who'll stop me from doing it, just like today. Pumikit ako at bumuntong hininga. Sa pagbukas ulit ng aking mata ay muling bumungad sa akin ang puting kisame ng aking kwarto at doon pumasok ang mga isiping hindi ko dapat iniisip sa oras na ito. I shouldn't let my intrusive thoughts win but siguro this will be for good.
Isa mang kasalanan ang gagawin kong ito pero hinding hindi ko ito pagsisisisihan. Pagkatapos nito'y kasabay na mawawala lahat ng hirap, lahat ng sakit at pighati. Pagkatapos nito ay wala nang papatak na luha, no more sleepless nights, and no more crying myself to sleep. Pagkatapos nito'y malaya na ako.
This is it. I smiled for the last time. A weak smile but a smile of relief. A smile of relief kase after this everything will be fine, everything will be all good and I'll be good.
And just as I was about to hang myself and die, I heard multiple knocks on my door. Napatawa ako ng mapakla. Maybe, just maybe hindi pa ito ang tamang oras. Maybe I was really bound to hurt and suffer like this.
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