Dear Diary » Bang Chan
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People say, do whatever it takes for you to be happy.
That's a big lie.
Because, when I am happy with my teammates, people call me crazy and take me to therapists and then my own parents leave me in an asylum where I do not belong too. They really don't care about me, my friends and my teammates.
They never care.
"We did it, boys! We are now a team! No one can stop us!"
"But hyung, only you can see us."
"What?"
This book is in Bang Chan's point of view.
TWs: Mention of mental illnesses, mention of depression etc.
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