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PULSE [H.S]

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Reads 326,536
Votes 8,419
Parts 125
Time 22h 9m

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[COMPLETED]

Kizalyn Reeves has fiercely fought to establish stability after a turbulent upbringing. While opening her tattoo parlor offered hope, an abusive relationship cast a shadow over her newfound independence. 

Determined to defend herself, she turns to boxing at Knockout Arena, only to encounter an arrogant instructor. Despite his hot-tempered attitude, she finds herself drawn to his circle of friends. 

However, a late-night visit uncovers the gym's sinister secrets, plunging Kizalyn into a dangerous world she didn't know existed. Her world is shattered by a single gunshot, forcing her to place trust in an unlikely ally-the very person that pulled the trigger.

--

"115," he says, his breath hitting my face.

I stammer, "What?"

"That's how high your pulse is right now," he says as he presses his body further against mine, closing any gap that existed between us.

His thumb grazes over my lips, his eyes dark. His hands are off of me abruptly, and he walks away, heading for the stairs. I stare after him, unable to move from my position against the wall.

He looks back at me, a coy smirk forming on his face.

He says, "I'm dying to find out how high I can make it go."

--

**WARNING

This story contains heavy use of violence, drug abuse, domestic abuse, sexual content, drug addiction, and illegal activities. Read at your own discretion.

Disclaimer: The characters depicted in this story share names with famous individuals, but they are entirely fictional and do not represent or depict any real-life personalities.All Rights Reserved

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Past Escaping's Larry AU

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