Pretend You Love Me | kn

"I see Daniel struggling. Sometimes, I just wish I was brave enough to tell him I was sorry that he has to force himself to love me. That he cannot mourn her death because he see's the mirror image of her everyday. That he cannot move on because he has to pretend she is still alive.

I want to tell him that he's brave. Because he cannot come to terms with her death as long as I am alive and pretending to be her. That his situation is harder than anyone having to deal with a loved one's death. At least they get a chance to mourn and move on. Daniel is still trapped.

I know he loves Katerina. I see in the pictures, hear it in the stories Julia tells me about them. Maybe I am selfish for wanting a love like that. Selfish enough to look at their pictures and wish to actually be Katerina, just for the way he looks at her. No matter how much he pretends, he won't look at me that way. People might not notice, but I do.

Because even if I look like her, I am not and will never be Katerina. And the both of us have to live with that."