Food Journal

My entire life I've always been the fat girl.. and sure in my childhood I always said it never bothered me, I didn't care what other people thought. But now I do, Now I have no friends because people don't want to be around the fat girl, I'm scared to wear anything other than sweatpants and a hoodie, my parents daily say I eat to much and tell me I'm fat, I want nothing more than to be loved but I've come to the answer I'm incapable of it unless I change drastically. And for me that means taking accountability

I vow in this book to mark each food I eat and the calories to hold myself accountable and change my life, I vow to stop eating Maccas when I'm working, and to eat healthier. I vow to limit myself to under 1500 calories, and if I exceed it I have to exercise more than I previously have

(PSA: while undiagnosed by anyone, it's clear to see I probably have compulsive over eating, along with binge eating, which does make this a little more difficult. And I know to most, you'd probably just say stop eating it's not hard, but if their food is around I eat it. And I can't stop)