trying to love myself
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MatureOngoing9m
Last published Sat, Mar 23, 2024
london wants a normal life she wants to experience the world and find love why did her mother have to not love her she leaves and gets into one of the most expensive academy's in the country but only to be roommates with a boy..
"if you keep dancing on that boy then you will regret it"
"and what are you going to do"
he leads down to my ear and whispers "i will kill him and cut his hand of and deliver it to you and any boy that touch's you your mine love and only mine"
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