painful memories

Here are the days pass quickly, but the memories do not pass quickly, but every night it hurts me so much, I tell myself that I have overcome everything bad in all aspects, but I am not aware that I am lying to my poor self, I feel that I am unable to moveI became afraid of what is to come. Yes, we are optimistic, but because of the many sorrows and pains, I became like a small child lost in a deserted place.I don't know what to do? Hating everything, losing passion and enthusiasm, my heart has become dead, cold feelings and....., I have lost the taste of life. By God, I have lost control of my feelings, but I will not give up. I continue my journey like a drug, I do not know what is happening.
I can no longer bear anything, I no longer know laughter and happiness, crying, crying, strange lack of sleep, completely collapsed, two years or more and I have been like this, the truth is I could not bear it, so there is little left and everything bad ends, there is not much left, a little patience.
I wish to die in the place of this life that I live of crying, complaining, heartbreak, hypocrisy and betrayal. Every day I feel a new tear in my heart. It is an indescribable feeling. I was the happiest of people, but conditions changed in a matter of seconds because of the events that It happened to me. With your comfort, storms of all kinds will visit you without mercy, because God does not waste the right of any person. wait for me....
You are sitting in your home until you encounter situations that you did not imagine from these people whom we said about the most beloved and closest people to our hearts, but in a second they bring you their filth and dirt that does not leave them until their death, yes you are surprised...
Or I say, I am surprised!
Part 1....p