Unraveling

How can you love someone you don't even know?

Ang dami niyang sekretong nakatago. Ang daming parte niyang pilit niyang pinagkakait sa akin. But the part of him that he let me indulge with, it was the parts of him that I love and crave the most.

It was enough until it wasn't. While he memorized every nook and twist of my soul and mind. While he tasted and embraced all my shame and regrets and secrets- I know nothing of him.

We played so well and thoroughly between the sheets. But that's all it is.

He doesn't want to marry me.

He doesn't introduce me to his friends and family.

Not once, did he say he loves me.

He treats me like a queen outside the bedroom but fucks me like a whore inside of it. Just what I prefer.

And again, it was enough at first, until it wasn't.

Sa una lang pala masaya. Naubos din pala ako sa huli. Akala ko kaya kong makipaglaro sa apoy. Kinaya ko naman noong una. But everytime we see each other, the fire burns brighter and stronger.

I want more of him, he want less of me.

Kaya tinapos ko ang limang taong relasyon namin.

Akala ko tapos na. Maling-mali pala ako. Umpisa lang pala iyon ng mga pangyayaring babago ng takbo ng buhay ko.

Donovan isn't the man he told me he is. He's far more dangerous and powerful.

When I left him, he took it as an act of war. And Lord knows, I am no soldier.