I write what I want. I write what I feel.
And it's ugly cause it's a real diary.
I don't know what it is but it's precious to me.
Are your thoughts not precious to you?
I just like it this way.
Also chances for grammatical mistakes are high, I'll try to avoid those but if you find one let it be. Myself thrives in errors and unordinary.
If you are depressed or mentally unstable don't read.
If you are sad don't read.
And if you still decide to read it, please understand and remember brain, mind, emotions, feelings, thoughts such stuff can never be fully tamed. Therefore we express it in weird ways, such as this. I am able to write this because I am still alive, you are able to read it because you are still alive, that is one reason to be grateful to be alive and still live on.
Life can be ugly but let us still thrive on small happiness like this.